Why it's okay to not want to grow...

Right now....

Okay, so bare with me on this one.

It may seem like a strange topic to choose for my first proper blog post, but its something I've been sitting on for a while now.

Why it's okay to not want to grow... right now..

No I'm not just talking about growing old (no one wants to do that, not really!) I'm talking about my small business. Now don't get me wrong, of course I want everyone to go and order something from me, or follow me on social media.. to help me hit my sales targets or gain thousands of followers.

But do I really want that to happen right now?

Okay, okay, you can call me crazy, because when I think this to myself, even I think I'm going crazy! Surely the point of a business, big or small is growth, right? Well the more I do this small biz thing, the more I think, WRONG!

Having a small business is more than growth, its about putting yourself out there, having a purpose and something to do with your time and energy. Of course I need orders to do that, but it's not the end of the world if I'm not drowning in them all the time.

Sometimes I watch other small business' (who by the way are KILLING it!) and I think wow! It would be amazing to have 5 thousand followers on Instagram and an order book so full I have to shut it, but then if I really think about it, I realise It probably wouldn't (at least at the moment).

My small business didn't start because I wanted ALL THE MONEY, it started simply as an escape from being 'just a mum'. Macramé has become a part of my life and much more than just a craft (soppy I know!).

This thing I call my small business, is more of a funded journey and on this journey not only have I learnt a new skill, which almost a year on I'm still learning. I have also met people who I would have never met, both in person and online, learnt how a craft can help in the darkest of times and things about myself I never knew.

So I suppose the point I'm trying to make here is this:

It's okay to not want to grow...

At least right now.

Because my kids are still small... I don't want to miss them growing, and I don't want to miss my other baby, my business growing.

Because its MY business, no one else's!

Because the more I pressure myself to gain the followers and sell all the things, the more I fall out of love with it all.

Sometimes you've got to stop worrying about your Instagram count, and what others are doing and just enjoy the journey. Your journey.

Don't compare yourself to others, we are all on our own paths. That's what makes it so special.

Charlotte.